So..... I've decided that I'm not doing anymore "diets" because I've tried most of them, and they don't work. Well they do work some, but they don't fix the problem, and they usually just end up making it worse. You might say that I haven't tried "that" diet the MIRACLE diet that will fix all of my problems!! Well I'm sure I have, or at least one of its cousins. They all do about the same thing. Here is the outline of 99.99999% of the diets out there (and yes you will sense some sarcasm in the descriptions)
- What you are eating right now is wrong! You must throw everything in your fridge away and go buy the food outlined in this book, pamphlet, website...
- You must spend 3 times the amount of time at the grocery store that you normally would, because you have to go through several brands of each food to find the one that fits into the outline.
- If you don't want to spend more time at the grocery store, than you can spend more money buying the food with our logo on it. Because we did all the work for you, isn't that nice!
- You can't go out to eat and really have fun with your friends b/c they will probably get your favorite dish, that you can no longer have, and you will spend the whole time imagining pushing them out of the way and having that wonderful thing for yourself.
- You can go to parties with cake but you should eat your rice cakes before hand to make it so that you're not hungry at the party. ( If not being hungry would stop me from eating cake, then I wouldn't have to be on this stupid diet!! Just saying)
- Oh and I absolutely love the one where you take a picture of yourself and use a big red marker to circle the parts of your body that you hate and would like to change.
Have I gotten most of it? If you have any others I'd love to hear them.
I'm not saying that I don't want to be healthy, because I do. There are things that I want to do that I can't right now at the weight that I'm at. I'm very aware of that. I just don't think that making myself miserable by thinking about food all the time, to make sure I'm only eating inside the box is a healthy way to get healthy. Did you get all that?
So my plan is to find a gym that can work around my crazy schedule that changes from week to week. Once I do that then I'm not going to bagger myself for not going every day. Because there are some things that are higher on my list right now. Like spending time with the kids my mom watches, they're like family.
Earlier when I mentioned that diets only dealt with the symptoms and not the actual problem. I'll go ahead and explain that further. What I mean is that I think most of us that struggle with weight, are struggling with it because of some other crap in our lives. I think that the food is just an avenue for us to deal with some other kind of pain. I'm not just talking about being over weight I'm also talking about being under weight. For some of us food is a way to control one part of our life when everything else is out of control. For others it is a place of comfort when the pain is too much to deal with. I've also seen that it can be a way to shut up the emotions that we believe are wrong. I don't really know the answer to all of it, well acutally I do, God can fill the hole and sooth the pain, and let you know that the emotions are OK. But what I'm really trying to say is that keeping the hunger away is not going to make the problem go away. If I have a problem with the person I see in the mirror, losing weight is not going to get rid of that person. It will just make less of one to look at. So, that's what I'm working on. I'm trying to be ok with the person that is with me all the time, and become the person that I want to be. I'm confident that once that happens, or at least pregresses, the weight loss will happen.
Ok I promise this whole blog will not be about weight anymore. I don't know what I'm going to put on here, but it'll be more fun. I think I may see what you guys want to read.
